Why I am Watching Lifetime's Reality Show, 'Wokwatiwa Koyamba'?

Ndakhala ndikudziwika kuti ndikulowerera m'ma franchise ena, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndangotenga zinthu zatsopano.

Nyengo yaposachedwa kwambiri ya chiwonetsero cha Lifetime Wokwatiwa Koyamba ikukhamukira pa Hulu ndipo ndidakhala Loweruka langa usiku ndikumata.

Cholinga chake ndi chosavuta - gulu la akatswiri limafanana ndi anthu awiri omwe amakumana koyamba patsiku laukwati wawo, kenako pambuyo pa milungu isanu ndi umodzi ali pabanja, amasankha ngati akufuna kukhalabe okwatirana, kapena kusudzulana.

Ndiye chiyembekezo. Zotsatirazi ndi zomwe zikuwululidwa ndi mitu yambiri yokhudza banja yothanirana-maubwenzi akale, kukondana, kugonana, kukondana, ndi machitidwe, mwa zina.

Ndizodabwitsa kuti omwe amapanga chiwonetserochi akupereka lingaliro ili ngati labwinobwino kapena kuti ndiwothandiza poyesera kupeza chikondi ndi wokwatirana naye pomwe mwachidziwikire lingaliro losayenera ili, lomwe lakhala ndi mikangano yambiri, limafunsa funso ili: Chifukwa chiyani Ndikuwona izi?

Ochita nawo mpikisanowo akubwera pakufuna kwawo kukwatiwa ndi kupeza chikondi. Amavomereza kuyesa zibwenzi pa intaneti koma osachita bwino; ali okonzeka komanso okonzeka kutenga kulumpha kwakukulu kulowa muukwati usiku, ndikuyembekeza ndikupemphera zinthu mwanjira inayake.

Sindinakhalepo pachibwenzi pa intaneti kale. Ndinali pa Tinder kapena Bumble kwa sabata limodzi zaka zingapo zapitazo. Nditakhala ndi "chibwenzi" chimodzi kapena "kukumana" komwe, ndimaganiza kuti mungayitane, ndinakumana ndi mnyamatayu nditazindikira kuti ndinali pachibwenzi chogonana.

Kunali kukumana chabe kuti ndione ngati mnyamatayo akufuna kugona nane, zomwe adachita, ndipo sindinatero, ndiye kuti ndiwo anali womaliza kuchita nawo zibwenzi pa intaneti ndipo ndidakhala kutali ndi mapulogalamu ena azibwenzi.

Ngati sindingathe kuthana ndi zibwenzi pa intaneti, mukukhulupirira kuti sindingapiteko pa imodzi mwaziwonetserozi, koma ndimalemekeza lingaliro la anthu loyesera zotere ndikuwathokoza chifukwa chondipatsa Loweruka usiku popeza kulibe kothawira ndikupeza winawake wamakedzana.

Sabata yatha, ndimayenera kulemba fomu yapaintaneti kuti ndidzasankhidwe. Ndinali ndikuzengereza kwa miyezi ingapo tsopano chifukwa ndimaopa kukhala mchipatala kapena mozungulira ndi COVID-19 koma ndidaganiza kuti kupeza pap smear ndi mammogram sikungaperekedwe nsembe kapena kuyimitsidwa panthawiyi.

Momwe ndimadzaza fomuyo, imandifunsa ngati ndimagonana ndipo ndimayenera kuyimilira ndikuganiza za nthawi yomwe ndinagonana komaliza ndipo sindinakumbukire.

Ndikudziwa kuti zinali zoposa chaka chapitacho, ndipo ngakhale ndimadziwa munthu amene ndimagona naye, sindimadziwa kuti ndi liti, sindinanene kuti kwakhala kanthawi.

Zinali zosamvetseka kulemba kuti sindinachite zachiwerewere chifukwa sizinakhale zachikhalidwe mmoyo wanga mpaka mliriwu, ndipo ndinayamba kudzifunsa kuti kusowa kwa chilumikizano kwa miyezi yambiri kwakhudza bwanji moyo wanga thanzi lam'mutu komanso thanzi lathunthu.

Popeza izi ndi zatsopano kwa ine, ndikuphunzira momwe ndikupitira, koma ndikudziwa kuti sizingakhale bwino kukhala namwali wachiwiri panthawiyi.

Sabata yatha, ndimalankhula ndi mnzanga yemwe adakumana ndi winawake pa Nsomba Zambiri. Onse amamenya, ndikuyesedwa kamodzi pa sabata kuti atsimikizire kuti ali otetezeka kusonkhana ndipo ali wokondwa kwambiri ndipo akufuna kuti ndileke kuyeserera ndikuyesera, koma ayi.

Sindingayese mayeso a COVID-19 sabata iliyonse kuti ndigone kapena kuti ndikhale ndi tsiku kapena bwenzi. Sindikumuweruza ndipo ndine wokondwa kwambiri chifukwa cha iye, koma zonsezi zikuwoneka ngati ntchito yambiri.

Lang'anani, kubwerera kuwonetsero. Chifukwa chiyani ndikuwonera izi? Kodi moyo wanga wakwanira chiyani? Sindingapiteko pa chimodzi mwaziwonetserozi. Sindingachite nawo zibwenzi pa intaneti, sindingathe kupita kunja, kapena kukhazikitsidwa patsiku chifukwa ndikadapita kuti? Ndipo kodi ndikufunadi kuti ndidzivutitse ndikudzifunsa kuti, "Kodi munthuyu ali ndi mayeso olakwika a COVID-19?"

Kodi ndine mdani wanga wamkulu pakulephera kwanga kuyesera chilichonse kuti ndipeze mwamuna, kapena kodi izi ndi zachilendo kwanthawi yayitali kufikira moyo utabwerera kuzinthu zina zakale zomwe zidalipo, ndipo ndibwerera moyo wokhazikika mu ubale wabwinobwino?

Monga ngati pali chinthu choterocho, koma chilichonse ndibwino kuposa zomwe zakhala moyo wanga pokhudzana ndi kusowa kwa kugonana, kusakhala pachibwenzi, kusakhala pachibwenzi, kapenanso ubale.

Sindikuganiza kuti pali njira yodziwira chilichonse pakadali pano, zomwe ndizowopsa komanso zokhumudwitsa, koma pali zochepa zokha zomwe ndingathe kuwongolera.

Kudzivulaza chifukwa chodzaza fomu yoti ndikumane ndi dokotala ndikudziwa kuti sindinagonanepo patatha chaka sichimathandiza. Kufunsa chifukwa chomwe ndikuwonera zomwe zikuwoneka ngati zoyipa komanso kuwonetsa ziwonetsero sikupindulitsanso.

Kodi ndigwiritsanso ntchito chaka china chogonana, osayanjana, osakhala ndi masiku, komanso osagonana ndi mwamuna?

Sindikudziwa, mwina. Tsogolo likuwonekabe kapena kudziwika. Pakadali pano, ndibwerera kuwonetsero kanga ndipo ndikhale wokhutira kuti, ngakhale ndili ndi manyazi pang'ono kuvomereza kuti ndimakonda kuchita nawo ziwonetserozi kumapeto kwa sabata yanga, mwina ndikupulumuka pazinthu zachilendozi zomwe ndakhala nazo ndakhala ndikudutsa miyezi ingapo, ndipo ndakhala munthu monga lero.