Chifukwa Chomwe Kusunthira Ndi Gahena Kwa Anthu Oda nkhawa

Ndili ndi tanthauzo latsopano loti ndigwiritse ntchito wina akakhala kuti sachita bwino. “Ndikukhulupirira kuti uyenera kusamuka,” ndinatero mokweza, ndipo ngati sindinena mokweza ndiganiza. Kusuntha ndi mtundu wankhanza womwe sungathe kufotokoza; uyenera kukhala moyo kuti udziwe momwe umakhudzira moyo wako, moyo wako, moyo wako.

Ngati muli ndi nkhawa ndipo mwasuntha posachedwa kapena mukukonzekera kusamuka, mwina mukudziwa kuzunzika kopanga mindandanda yopanda malire; kukhala ndi malingaliro anu kumakhala kovuta mukamayesa kugona; poyang'ana kusatsimikizika kwa momwe mungapezere zonse zomwe muli nazo m'makatoni; kuyenda mozungulira zokumba zanu zapano mukuyang'ana zonse zomwe ziyenera kuchitidwa; akukumana ndi mantha oti simungathe kusuntha tsiku; kuyesera kudziwa choti usunge ndi choti uponye komanso chifukwa chomwe mungafunikire zinthu zomwe mukufuna kuponya; ndikudabwa yemwe ali kwa inu ndi amene mungadalire; kuthana ndi kusintha, ngakhale kuli koyenera; kutopa mwakuthupi ndi m'maganizo ndi m'maganizo; kupanga zisankho mutaganiza; kumva kuthedwa nzeru chifukwa chosowa dongosolo; kulola kupita kumtendere ndi kuzolowera kwanuko komwe muli; nkhawa zopanda dzina, zenizeni komanso zoganiza.

Kodi ndikudziwa bwanji izi? Chifukwa ine ndi amuna anga tangosamuka komwe tidakhala zaka l4. Tidayenera kusamutsa maofesi awiri, malo osungira, ndi zovala zathu zonse, mabuku, zaluso, nsalu, kukhitchini, makina ndi zinthu zomwe tidapeza kuyambira nthawi ziwiri za moyo. Tidali ndi milungu itatu kuti tichite, ndipo izi zidatsala pang'ono kundilowetsa. Pofika nthawi yomwe tinakhala kumalo athu atsopanowa, ndidakumana ndi mtundu wina wotopa kwambiri womwe unali watsopano kwa ine. Sindingathe kumasula makatoni kapena kupanga chisankho. Ndinadwala matenda amisala. Chilichonse chimawoneka chovuta komanso chosasangalatsa. Anzanga adabwera kudzandithandiza, ndipo ndidangoyimirira, wopanda chochita, ndikulephera kupeta chinsalu kapena kuyika shelufu mu kabati.

Kenako tinapita ku Silver City, New Mexico kukagwira ntchito. Ntchito ina inali yofufuza zinthu zachilendo ku Silver City, yomwe inali tawuni yowononga migodi yomwe yasungabe zowona zakumadzulo .....

...... ndipo amakopa ophika, ochiritsa, komanso anthu omwe amakonda chilengedwe, dera lawo, komanso moyo wathanzi, wamtendere.

Pafupifupi miyezi iwiri yapitayo, Lotus Center idatsegulidwa mtawuni, ndipo ndidasaina nawo maphunziro ochepa. Yoyamba inali kusinkhasinkha motsogozedwa motsogozedwa ndi munthu wotchedwa Jeff Goin.

Otsatira ochepa adakhala m'mipando yabwino, ndipo tinatseka maso athu pamene Jeff amalankhula nafe za momwe tingavomerezere zovuta zilizonse zomwe zikuchitika m'miyoyo yathu. Ingozilandirani izo. Kuvomereza sikukutanthauza kuti simukuchita kalikonse, kapena kuchitapo kanthu kuti muthetse vutoli, koma zikutanthauza kuti simulimbana nawo. Kodi anali wowerenga malingaliro? Kodi adadziwa kuti izi ndizomwe ndimafunikira kumva?

Ndikutseka maso, ndikumvetsera mawu a Jeff, ndidazindikira kuti kusuntha ndi gawo la moyo. Wopsinjika, wowopsa, inde, koma gawo chabe la moyo. Ndinamwetulira mkati momwe ndimazindikira kuti zimachitikira aliyense, monga misonkho, kudya mopitirira muyeso, kupereka zovala zomwe kale mumazikonda zachifundo, kupeza makwinya ndi kununkhira, kumangirira pakakhala kuzizira, kutha pepala la chimbudzi. Ndipo monga tafotokozera pamwambapa, zikadatha, kusintha, kukhala osiyana mawa ndi lero. Chifukwa chiyani muyenera kulimbana nacho? Tinayenera kusamuka. Tinasamuka. Ndagunda khoma. Anzake anabwera kudzathandiza. Landirani, landirani, landirani. M'kupita kwanthawi, ndinkasunthira kuchoka. Ndidayamika kukhala ndi malingaliro omwe amatha kusewera ndi mawu, ngakhale ndimangosewera.

Kutopa kwanga ndi kutentha kwanga sizinangowonongeka. Sindinamve malipenga ochokera kumwamba omwe adalengeza zavumbulutso la Mulungu. Koma dongosolo langa lamanjenje lidatsitsimuka pang'ono, ndidapeza zowoneka bwino, ndipo ndidatha kufikira nthawi yanga yonse yodabwitsa ku Silver City ndi mtima wosasunthika komanso malingaliro abwino.

Pali, ndikudziwa, zinthu zambiri zomwe ndizoyipa kwambiri kuposa kusuntha. Ndipo ngati abwera komanso liti, ndikukhulupirira kuti ndidzatha kukumbukira kuvomereza komwe ndidaphunzira ku Silver City.

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Zithunzi ndi Paul Ross.

Judith Fein ndi mtolankhani wapadziko lonse wopambana mphotho yemwe wathandizira pazofalitsa zoposa 100. Iye ndi mlembi wa MOYO NDI Ulendo: Transformative Magic of Travel ndi THE SPOON KUCHOKA MINKOWITZ, yomwe ikukhudzana ndi Emotional Genealogy. Tsamba lake ndi www.GlobalAdventure.us