Kusankha Pakati pa Okondedwa Athu ndi Chimwemwe Chathu

James Joyce ali ndi nkhani yayifupi, "Eveline," yokhudza mtsikana wazaka 19, Eveline Hill, yemwe akuyenera kusankha pakati kupitiliza kukhala ndi abambo ake omuzunza ku Dublin ndikupita ku Buenos Aires limodzi ndi iye (chinsinsi kuchokera kwa abambo ake), woyendetsa sitima wotchedwa Frank. Eveline akulonjeza Frank kuti apita naye kukakwatiwa, ndipo kwakanthawi, ali wokondwa ndi chiyembekezo ichi. Sadzamvanso a Miss Gavan, wamkulu pasitolo pomwe amagwirako ntchito, akumuuza pamaso pa makasitomala, "Abiti Hill, sukuwona azimayi awa akudikirira?" M'malo mwake, amamuchitira ulemu. Moyo wake ndi Frank, akuganiza, zikadakhala zabwino - zabwinoko - kuposa momwe moyo wa amayi ake omwe adamwalira ndi abambo ake udaliri. Frank, mosiyana ndi abambo ake, ali wokoma mtima komanso wofunitsitsa. Amakonda kuyimba ndipo ndi munthu wabwino.

Koma tsiku lonyamuka likuyandikira, malingaliro a Eveline amatembenuka pafupipafupi osati zamtsogolo ku Buenos Aires koma m'mbuyomu. Abambo a Eveline nthawi zonse anali kuzunza. Kwa zaka zambiri zinali zovuta kupeza ndalama zakunyumba kuchokera mwa iye, koma posachedwapa, adayamba kuopseza Eveline ndi chiwawa, kunena zomwe amamuchitira koma chifukwa cha amayi ake omwe adamwalira. Komabe, Eveline tsopano akupeza kuti akuganizira za mbali yabwino ya abambo ake: momwe adapangitsira abale ake ndi iye kuseka ali ana povala bonnet ya amayi ake; kamodzi, atadwala, adamuwerengera nkhani ndikupanga toast. Amakumbukiranso kuti adalonjeza amayi ake kuti banja lonse likhala limodzi. Ayenera kuchita chiyani? Joyce akulemba kuti:

Thawani! Ayenera kuthawa! Frank amupulumutsa. Amamupatsanso moyo, mwina chikondi. Koma anafuna kukhala ndi moyo. Chifukwa chiyani ayenera kukhala wosasangalala? Anali ndi ufulu wachimwemwe. Frank ankamunyamula, ndikumupinda. Amupulumutsa.

Nthawi ikafika, komabe, Eveline akupeza kuti sangathe kuchoka. Frank akumukoka iye kupita ku bwato, koma iye akugwira chitsulo chachitsulo ndi mphamvu zake zonse. Chotchinga chimagwa, ndipo Frank akuthamangira kudutsa chotchinga kupita kwa Eveline, kumuyimbira foni, koma sizinathandize. Eveline amasankha abambo ake omuzunza kuposa moyo wabwino ndi Frank. Amasankha kukhala ku Dublin.

Ndadziwa anthu omwe ali pamavuto a Eveline. Osati kale kwambiri, ndinali ndi wophunzira yemwe adachita bwino kwambiri kumapeto kwa semester koma mtundu wa ntchito yake udasokonekera mwadzidzidzi. Ndinamufunsa zomwe zinachitika. Anati adayitanidwanso kunyumba kuti akasamalire azichimwene awo ndi membala wodwalayo. Wophunzirayo amafuna thandizo kuchokera kwa ine posankha choti ndichite. Adandifunsa ngati ndimaganiza kuti angakhale munthu wodzikonda ngati angasankhe kuchoka kwawo kuti akalimbikitse maphunziro ake. Sindikukumbukira zomwe ndidayankhula ndendende, koma ndikukumbukira kuti ndidamutumizira nkhani ya Joyce yokhudza Eveline Hill.

Kodi tiyenera kuchita chiyani pankhani ngati iyi - yomwe abale athu tili odzipereka kutibweza m'moyo?

Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndikufuna kudziwa ndichakuti nkhaniyi ndi yosiyana kwambiri ndi iyi: Mwana waulesi komanso wosasamala amawononga ndalama za makolo ake m'malo mofunafuna ntchito, kapena sakhala kunja kwa tawuni pamene kholo lodwala limafuna thandizo. Pazifukwa zomalizazi, anthu akusankha zisangalalo zopanda pake pazofunikira zofunika za omwe ali pafupi ndi okondedwa ndipo mwina, pantchito zawo.

Nkhani yomwe ndili nayo m'malingaliro ndiyosiyananso ndi yomwe munthu wosauka amapeza ndalama zambiri koma amakana kupereka thandizo ku banja lake.

Ena atha kuyesa kufanana pakati pa milandu monga ya Eveline kapena wophunzira wanga ndi ya mwana wosasamala kapena wachuma uja amene amaiwala mizu yake. Ena atha kugwiritsa ntchito zofananazi kuti ajambule munthu amene wasankha kukwaniritsa zolinga zake monga wodzikonda komanso wosayamika. Koma palibe kufanana apa. Kunena zowonekeratu, sindikunena kuti munthu aliyense wosauka amene akulemera ndikuchita bwino ali ndi udindo woti atumize ndalama kwa abale ake omwe ali ndi mwayi, nawonso. Zimadalira momwe ena adamchitira zabwino. Pambuyo pake, makolo ake amatha kuzunza - pamaganizidwe kapena mwakuthupi - mpaka kutaya chilichonse chomwe angakhale nacho poyamika kapena kuthandizidwa ndi mwana. Koma nthawi zambiri, makamaka omwe makolo ake sanamuthandize - mwina kudzimana kwakukulu kuti athe kulipira popita kusukulu - zingakhale zopanda ulemu komanso zosavomerezeka kuwabweza pambuyo pake, pomwe wina angathandize.

Komabe, milandu yomwe ndimaganizira ndiyosiyana. Zomwe mamembala pabanja monga momwe wophunzira wanga kapena Eveline amafunira nthawi zambiri sizongothandiza. Amafuna winayo - makamaka mwana koma nthawi zina m'bale, mdzukulu, kapena wachibale wina - kuti apereke zolinga zake, zokhumba zake, ndi mwayi wopeza chisangalalo. Amalimbikira kukhala ndi chonena pankhani ya momwe moyo wa mnzake ungakhalire, ndipo nkhawa yawo yayikulu siyabwino yokhudza ena koma ndi yawo.

Catherine Arrowpoint wochokera m'buku la George Eliot Daniel Deronda zifukwa zosiyana ndi Eveline Hill. Catherine amachokera kubanja lolemera, ndipo kwa iye, si ndalama kapena nthawi yomwe makolo ake amafuna; m'malo mwake, makolo a Catherine, amayi ake makamaka, amaumirira mphamvu ya veto zikafika paukwati wa mtsikanayo. Amayi akufuna kuti Catherine asiye lingaliro lakukwatiwa ndi woyimba, Herr Klesmer, wachichepere. Amayesetsa kukopa Catherine kuti mgwirizanowu ungakhale wosayenera - manyazi kwa banja.

Ngakhale Joyce's Eveline wagawanika mkati ndikupemphera kwa Mulungu kuti amuwonetse njira yakutsogolo, amayi a Catherine akunena mosabisa kuti Catherine ali ndi ntchito zapabanja zomwe zimalepheretsa kukwatiwa ndi Herr Klesmer. Amayi amayesa kudzimvera chisoni-kupangitsa mwanayo kusiya ntchito kuti akhale mkazi wamwamuna amene amamukonda. Catherine, komabe, akukana. Eliot akulemba kuti:

“Mzimayi amene ali ndi udindo ali ndi udindo waukulu. Pamene ntchito ndi zokonda zikusemphana, ayenera kutsatira zomwe akuchita. ”

"Sindikukana," adatero Catherine, kuzizira mofananira ndi kutentha kwa amayi ake. “Koma wina akhoza kunena zinthu zowona ndikuziwanamizira. Anthu atha kutenga udindo wopatulika ndi dzina la zomwe amafuna kuti wina aliyense achite. ”

Inde, zikuwoneka kuti ndizosavuta kwa Catherine kuposa momwe Eveline angakhalire wolimba, chifukwa zofuna za amayi a Catherine zimakhazikika pamakhalidwe omwe Catherine amawona ngati opondereza. Amayi a Catherine safuna thandizo. Komabe, milandu iwiriyi ili m'njira zofunikira mofananamo, kupatula kuti atsikana awiriwa amasankha mosiyana. Catherine amakhulupirira kuti ali ndi ufulu wokwatiwa ndi mwamuna yemwe amamukonda, ndipo amachita. Eveline samaliza kunena kuti ali ndi udindo wokhala, koma amapezeka kuti sangathe kuchoka.

Pomwe Eveline ali pamavuto ake, amakumbukira zomwe amayi ake ananena atagona. Amayiwo anali atatopa komanso osaganiza bwino, koma mawuwo adabwerera kwa Eveline: "Derevaun Seraun." Joyce samasulira mawuwa, koma zikuwoneka kuti, awa ndi mawu achi Irish Gaelic omwe amatanthauza kuti: "Pamapeto pa chisangalalo, pamakhala ululu." Tidapatsidwa kuti timvetsetse kuti kwa Eveline, mawuwa amalimbikitsa za kukhalabe m'malo.

Pali, komabe, maphunziro osiyanasiyana omwe Eveline akanatha kutenga kuchokera pamawu akale. Mwachitsanzo, atha kudziwa kuti azikhala akulipira mtengo pochoka, kuti mwina kupweteka sikungapeweke, koma komabe, kuchoka ndi Frank ndizomwe ayenera kuchita. Chifukwa chiyani satero?

Ndizovuta kunena, koma ndikuganiza kuti Eveline apeza kuti pali mgwirizano womwe umamugwira ku Dublin, mgwirizano womwe sangadule. Zikanakhala zosavuta kuti Eveline achoke ndi Frank kupita ku Buenos Aires ngati abambo ake anali oyipa kwathunthu, ngati sanayese kusangalatsa ana ake achichepere kapena kuchita chilichonse chosamalira Eveline. Zakale za Eveline, zikatero, zikadakhala zopukutira, koma tsogolo lake likadakhala lowala bwino, mwinanso lowala kwambiri. Chomwe chimakhala choyipa kwambiri kuposa kusowa chikondi konse, nthawi zina, chimakhala chosasintha, chikondi chochepa, komanso chodzikonda, chikondi champhamvu mokwanira kutipweteka koma osayera mokwanira kuti atibweretsere chimwemwe.